Honestly, I have never been a big fan of insurance. I am not much of a gambler, and paying for insurance feels like betting on my own misfortune. I have never purchased insurance for a cell phone or appliance. I would rather save the money and make an effort to take care of my possessions. I reluctantly have car insurance, home owner’s insurance, disability insurance, life insurance and health insurance. The only insurance I have ever used is health insurance, and that’s because health insurance is not actually insurance.
Typically, insurance works by charging a large amount of people a low fee to protect against an unlikely catastrophic event, such as a house fire or a totaled vehicle. Health insurance was previously used this way. Patients paid their doctors directly for medical care and turned in their own insurance claims when needed. Routine medical care was affordable for most, and doctors would often write off bills for patients in need. Insurance was used for major surgery, hospitalizations, or cancer treatment. Health insurance has morphed into a comprehensive pre-paid healthcare plan with unaffordable premiums. Many families spend over $20,000 annually on health insurance premiums and STILL pay out-of-pocket for all of their medical care due to high deductibles. Insurance is meant to protect against financial catastrophe, but in the case of healthcare, insurance IS the financial catastrophe. Patients do not realize that their doctors are receiving ever lower reimbursement and are spending over half their time engaged in meaningless insurance paperwork to get paid and to get the appropriate treatment for their patients. They cannot understand why their healthcare quality continues to drop as they pay more and more.
Imagine if your car insurance worked like your health insurance. You would be forced to pay $1000 per month for car insurance, but it would cover gas, oil changes, car washes, tires, windshield wiper blades, regular maintenance, and repairs. Of course, the prices for all of these services would increase dramatically, and you would have no way of knowing the price until months later. Also, you would pay a $20 co-pay for all services and would be responsible for the first $3000 of costs each year. However, after paying that first $15,000, all costs associated with your car would be FREE! Keep in mind that you would need to stay in-network. You may have a habit of swinging into the Wawa every morning on your way to work, but one day you learn that Wawa is now out-of-network, so now you are responsible for paying $250 for a tank of gas. Of course, you could drive 15 miles out of your way to get your tank of gas covered at 7-eleven, after you pay the co-pay and deductible. Also, you have to go inside, wait in line, show the gas station attendant your car insurance card, and fill out five pages of paperwork prior to filling your tank.
Americans have been brainwashed to believe that our current healthcare system is the only way to pay for healthcare. Of course, this is not true. The main reason that healthcare is unaffordable is because of the health insurance companies and all of the administrative middlemen who profit off this system. The only way for this system to change is for doctors and patients to demand better. If doctors stopped billing insurance and instead offered affordable cash prices for medical care, patients would not need to purchase these expensive pre-paid healthcare plans and could opt instead for affordable catastrophic plans or for health-sharing plans, such as Sedera, for as low as $136 per month. In my Direct Primary Care practice, patients get all the primary care they need for $75 per month, and I help them navigate the system to find the best prices on screening and diagnostic testing, medication and other treatments.
Gender politics aside, let’s talk about why the way doctors get paid matters to you as a patient. Female physicians don’t just get paid less because they prioritize their families, they get paid less because they prioritize patients. In the fee-for-service model, doctors are paid per patient visit, so the more patients they see, the more they get paid. This means that the worst doctors are paid the most. Healthcare administrators love “productive” doctors like Dr. Tigges who see 40-50 patients per day in 5-10 minute visits. These doctors make a ton of money rolling patients through the assembly line, and they produce even more money downstream with all of their referrals and tests and frequent return visits since their patients’ problems are never adequately addressed. One local hospital group times all patient visits, and any physician who spends longer than 15 minutes with a patient is reprimanded. The best physicians are literally punished for prioritizing patient care over profits.
Doctors who spend more time with their patients are better diagnosticians because they listen to their patients, get a thorough history, and perform an appropriate exam. They are less likely to need to order expensive tests or refer out to a specialist. The best doctors consider the cost of care and take extra time to ensure that their patients are getting the most affordable medications and that they are not subjected to costly and unnecessary testing. The best doctors respect their patients’ time and avoid making them return for another appointment for a skin biopsy or joint injection. Spending more time with patients is also important in building trust and motivating them to make healthy changes, such as smoking cessation or weight loss. Female physicians have been proven to have lower mortality rates, probably because they choose to spend more time with patients, make thoughtful diagnoses, order testing judiciously, address financial concerns for patients, and make sure that their patients understand and agree with the treatment plan.
I know many excellent physicians, both male and female, who make patients their priority and give them the time they deserve. However, this is very difficult to accomplish within the current system, and many good doctors get swept up in pleasing their bosses and paying off their medical school loans. The solution, for doctors and patients alike, is Direct Primary Care. By paying an affordable monthly fee, patients get access to a doctor who has plenty of time to give them the best possible care. Doctors are paid fairly because they are providing a valuable service directly to the patients who pay them.
The first time I tried meditation, I thought it was a waste of time. I was an intern, and as usual, I had a long list of work to complete. I wanted to get my discharge summaries dictated, but instead, I was being forced to count my breaths. I suppose I did waste my time, since I spent the entire session stressing myself out over how much I had to do and how I would never be able to complete it all. Of course, I did everything I needed to do, but my agitated internal dialogue was not a motivating factor; it was a distraction.
Years later, I finally discovered the benefits of meditation. At first I was doubtful when I read that meditation could help with mood disorders, addiction, pain relief, insomnia, and weight loss, in addition to increasing productivity and joy. In fact, Headspace is currently working on FDA approval to designate guided meditation as an official medical treatment. I started using the Headspace app this year, just ten minutes per day. Similar to physical exercise, this mental exercise is not enjoyable at the time, but its benefits last all day. I have noticed increased kindness and patience for myself and for others. I intentionally pause to enjoy moments like bedtime snuggles with my boys who won’t be little for long.
Most of our suffering occurs when we are thinking about the past or the future. We may be experiencing shame about something we said or did. We may be experiencing anger over something someone else said or did. We may be anxious about a future meeting or conversation or overwhelmed with tomorrow’s to-do list. We may feel fearful over the possibility of a car accident, a cancer diagnosis, or a terrorist attack. Our thoughts can become habitual, neural pathways carved into our brains. We may find ourselves thinking the same string of thoughts, which results in anger with a spouse, impatience with our children or frustration with our job. Even when we are experiencing physical discomfort, the majority of our suffering is created by our thoughts. Thoughts about how our pain is debilitating or unfair result in worsening pain, especially if there is anxiety over how long the pain will last or whether it’s a sign of a serious medical condition.
If we can let go of all those thoughts about the past and the future, we are left with a fairly neutral present moment. In the present, we experience only our senses. With our eyes closed, we can hear the sounds around us, smell any scents, and feel the weight of our body, the temperature of the room, and the air entering and leaving our lungs. This is a skill that takes a long time to develop, but it’s extremely useful. You can use it at any time to interrupt your current thoughts and allow the accompanying negative emotions to drift away. You can change the way you feel and react to the people and events in everyday life. You can change the way you respond to urges to snack, smoke or check your phone. You can learn to control your pain rather than letting it control you. You can learn how to let go of your thoughts in order to fall asleep more easily. Over time, you can literally rewire your brain to create new thought patterns and habits.
I was miserable for the first two months of my “diet”. Although I physically felt better and was pleased to see the numbers on the scale dropping and to feel my body shrinking, I was in a state of emotional turmoil. I grimly ate my grilled chicken and salmon and salads and steamed broccoli while watching others enjoy pizza and French fries and cookies and soda. I told myself sternly “You can’t eat those foods” and I suffered from this perceived deprivation. I had to wrestle with my desire for sugar and use huge amounts of willpower when anyone offered me a delicious forbidden treat or when the donuts called to me from the breakroom or the Girl Scout cookies beckoned from the freezer.
My plan from the very beginning was to reach my pre-pregnancy weight and then return to all of my favorite comfort foods. In fact, that was my main motivation. “Hurry up and lose the weight, so you can have ice cream!” my brain shouted. As someone who has always struggled with my weight, gaining and losing the same thirty pounds over and over again, I knew this was not logical. However, I could not conceive of a life without sugar. The prospect seemed so bleak.
When I had lost over half of my excess weight, I discovered a weight loss podcast by a fellow physician, Katrina Ubell, MD. Her words completely changed my perspective. She said “I want your food to be boring and your life to be exciting.” I teared up thinking of all of the times I declined invitations to go swimming because I did not want to wear a swimming suit in public. I even stayed home when my family went to California because I was overweight and did not want to pose for vacation photos in shorts. I realized that I was hiding from my life and that only by releasing this obsession with food would I be free to chase after the things I truly want.
I started working on my thoughts about food with the help of Katrina Ubell and Brooke Castillo, life and weight loss coaches. I stopped saying the word “diet” and starting thinking about what I ate in terms of an eating protocol: all of the foods that I choose to eat on a regular basis because they make me feel good physically and support a healthy weight. I stopped telling myself that I can’t eat certain foods. Instead, I tell myself that I can eat anything I want whenever I want, but there are certain foods that I choose to avoid most of the time because they make me feel poorly and will lead to weight gain if consumed regularly. Instead of “cheating on my diet”, I plan ahead to eat off my protocol. I find that I make much better decisions ahead of time than I do in the moment. I have also noticed changes in my body every time I consume processed carbohydrates. For two days after eating Halloween candy as planned, I experienced nausea, stomach discomfort and fatigue. When I eat popcorn at the movies, my allergy symptoms worsen with increased post-nasal drainage and a dry cough.
Slowly but surely, these techniques have decreased my desire for sugar and flour. I used to believe there were only two ways to respond to an urge to eat a certain food: eat that food or use willpower not to eat the food. Eating the food does not decrease your desire for the food, and using willpower actually increases your desire for the food. There is a top secret third way to respond to an urge which decreases your desire: simply allow it. Even now as I search for the right words, I have an urge for that leftover Halloween candy. Amused, I relax and allow myself to want the candy. Of course I want Halloween candy. I have always loved candy and maybe always will. I check with myself to make sure that I’m not hungry. Nope, not hungry at all, I just want candy and am feeling a little restless as I write. I am not surprised, frustrated or disgusted by my desire for candy. As I explore this desire, I realize that my desire not to have any candy is stronger than my desire to eat candy, and the urge fades away. I feel so confident in my ability to maintain my weight because I love the way that I eat and think about food. I no longer feel restricted or deprived because I can and do eat whatever I want, I just want to eat healthy foods most of the time. The urges still occur, but not as often as they used to, and the drama has been quieted.